03.31.06
Was It You?
We lie awake on the crumpled bed,
Friendship’s decayed , love almost dead.
Stare blankly at our tryst with time.
Was it you, who said she’ll never leave ?
Was it you ? It’s hard to believe.
Promises made were not to be kept,
Signals you’re sending, I cant intercept.
Seems like a faulty telepath line.
Was it you ; My Starlight, my Sun ?
It was you, we were almost one.
Now greed manipulates your heart,
All the memories torn apart.
I begin to doubt my state of mind.
Was it you ; The Angel, the Messiah ?
Or is this you, the deceitful liar ?
Still lying awake on this broken bed,
And I smile that it’s come to an end.
But crying alone in my head,
And I know inside I can’t pretend.
Was it you, who said she’ll never go ?
Was it you…I guess I’ll never know
Abhimanyu Shankdhar.
03.29.06
The truth’s out there?
What is the truth? What is real? What is reality? A very relative term I would say. What you believe in is the truth for you, regardless of whether it is true for the other person or not. This little piece that I am going to write is going to complicate things rather than simplify them, but then its written keeping in mind a very famous quotation -If you can't convince, confuse!
I was having this conversation with a friend the other day in which he said that we have to be open minded and more liberal in terms of what we consider to be real. It is only then will we be able to see beyond the accepted truth. Something along the lines of this world being an illusion and only if consider it an illusion, will you be able to break out of it. The whole thought reminded me of the spoon bending scence in the movie Matrix, when Neo goes to meet the Oracle. Most of you are already thinking – What??
So basically what he was saying is nothing is real. I have believed in that for the past few years now – You think therefore you are. Ya I haven't won too many debates on that and I know it doesn't sound convincing enough to too many people either. The point however is in order for you to achieve something, you have to first believe in your-self and in your ability to achieve it. So basically belief and reality are both inter-dependant.
Maybe achieving Moksha sounds a little too crazy, but you can start with the little things in life. Admisssions, Jobs, relationships, the power to believe. I personally believe that if you believe in something from the bottom of your heart, it comes true.
In my last piece I touched upon loving your self. It is a complicated thought (although it doesn't sound like it). But i will try and simplify it. Love yourself enough that you consider yourself worthy of that which you wish to achieve. Believe that you will and you will.
Ridhima Thakral
03.27.06
Life’s a bitch
Life’s a bitch, I’m her pimp. Some say I’m a reject Some, a wimp. Talkin’ of bitches, this one right here - I’d say she weren’t half bad.. That being said, she weren’t too great, Nothing that I’ve never had. Come to think of it, they’re all the same Some do stuff you didn’t do.. But Fuck’em man, white knuckles tight. She may be all that but she ain’t you. So I go on livin’ this semi charmed life On in this slow sucking hell. Insignificant pleasures where everyday I buy My soul, I often sell. And so it goes, it goes to hell, It goes to from bad to worse. I’d sell my self for golden filth, Till the day they come with my Herse. But before that day if I could see you one time I’d tear my heart out, show you its insides. It’s then you’ll see that in there you still reign,
No matter who lays on my bed. And then you’ll know, my life ended too,
The moment that you were dead.
Abhimanyu Shankdhar
Being ME
Shoved am again in the darkness
All my peace in ditch and harnessed
Its all gone from my fingers
Time I had to make it work
They left me heartless
Carved out the little I once had
Chopped it up and sold road side
hanging there at the butcher lane
Passersby frown at the infested
Bugs hower and parasites cling
Seeping in and out porous me
Nothing I have still
I am conned and butchered
Left open for every one to vision
Unheeded wounds and scars with blood
Mansi Raj Singh
03.25.06
Dumping ground
Dump it down all on me
Am the crap bin lookin for me?
I’ll tell u what u wanna hear
I’ll make your brain go blur
Mirror mirror on the wall
Who’s the fairest of em all
None ma love all are just crap balls
Look closer u me all alike
Let’s get on get the rap right
I lack rhythm and music
All I got bin full of curses
Ma heart beatless
Ma soul senseless
Give it to me now
The string for am looking all around
Don’t fall back get scared
I aint not gonna hurt
Just steal away your purr
Dance with me look at me now
You not gonna regret
Just feel the words somehow
Letting in go deep inside
Making u just like my foil
U and me go long way baby
Ur eyes showed me the way
Let’s do the gangsta rap again
We are everything but nothing
We rock the world just come and hold
Am all yours n love me n touch me
Feel me and kill me
Am the bin u looking for
Hollow within fill it up somehow
Hit me harder its still there
Last piece of a broken heart
Stinging deep bleeding my soul
Love me or forget me
Rather kill me
Bloods all around
Let me see how evil u r
Coz am the master
I never say die…I say kill
And let me lie
Under those muddy waters
Under those gruesome fathers
Who bred me and sinned of an all
Its all coming back to me
Ghosts of past don leave me
Squeeze me harder pulp me out
Take this away take me away
Leave me some place all alone
In the ditch in the dump
Where u left me once
Mansi Raj Singh
